post-bar blues: what I've been up to the last 5 months (oops)

Hey dudes,

First off, I so appreciate all of your patience with me as I get my life back in order. Blogging has definitely taken a back burner while the rest of life has been moving pretty fast.

November '20: Finished up law school classes forever and prepared for my last final exams ever. It was not nostalgic, fun, or even the slightest bit enjoyable, but I did get through it.

December '20: I graduated from law school with distinction! This was a long time coming, and while it was (and still is!) an accomplishment for sure, I knew I had the bar exam coming up that I needed to study for . . . so I didn't stop and smell the roses, really. Our graduation was also canceled due to the pandemic, so I graduated on Zoom while wearing my grandpa's burgundy sweatshirt. Always glamorous, ladies & gents.

January '20: I found out that due to the pandemic, the firm I'd been planning on working for post-bar no longer had the budget to hire me on as an associate. While this was really, really difficult news to hear at first, I'm taking it in stride now. I threw all of my energy into studying for the bar and literally nothing else (and when I say nothing else, I genuinely mean NOTHING. ELSE). It took lots of conversations with family, close friends, and journaling to get to a place where I could look at a job hunt (on top of all the other craziness) as a potentially good thing rather than a devastating one. I'll be the first to tell you that getting laid off/not hired absolutely sucks, but I'll also tell you that as it turns out, life moves on - and pretty quickly, in fact.

February '20: I took the California Bar Exam! It was about as hard as everyone says it is, which is to say - extremely. freaking. hard. I'll probably make more posts about that, but for now, please just have TONS AND TONS of grace with anyone in your life who is studying for a bar. It's actually the worst.

March '20: All I've been doing the last month is job hunting. At any given minute, I was probably perusing LinkedIn, my law school's job post board, cold emailing firms, or on the brink of a meltdown because I was stressed out and somehow had worked myself into some knot over the fact that I would never be an attorney, ever. So we're clear: I know that's ridiculous, but you really can't stop yourself from having those moments every now and again.

As March comes to a close, I feel okay about my job search - I've had a few promising interviews, and I expect to be working by this time next month (fingers crossed!), and hopefully I'll be getting a positive exam result back in May.

For now, again, thank you so much for your patience! I expect that I'll be around more soon with job updates and such.